Hello Everyone,
There is an old African Proverb that says, “Peace is costly but it is worth the expense.” My ancestors really knew what they were talking about with this. Last February, I felt like my life was completely falling apart, so I decided to do something about it. It was really hard for me to pinpoint the exact moment that things became unsettled. I thought it was when I walked away from a five year relationship or maybe it was when I began making poor financial decisions. Or perhaps it was a culmination of “pieces” of things that stole my peace. I was not going to play the victim but I realized that everything I needed to heal was right inside of me. On a cold, blistery day in February 2010, I put a plan into action to reclaim my peace. I was operating out of divine order and I knew I had to do something-FAST. Moreover, I knew that the inner joy I had worked so hard to achieve was not given to me by the world so I was not going to allow the world to take it away.
Iyanla Vanzant writes, “Lives fall apart, not because God is punishing us for what we have or have not done. Lives fall apart because they need to. A broken life is test of faith in the highest order.” There were times when I thought I would not make it, but I had faith and I knew a breakthrough was on the horizon. Due to poor planning and fiscal management in the past, it required me to make huge sacrifices to recover and rebuild. As a result of those sacrifices, I learned so much about myself, my relationships and money management. I worked on those issues that sometimes caused me to be my own worst enemy. Maya Angelou once said, “I sustain myself with the love of family.”God put wonderful people in my life who loved me tremendously; they showed up when I needed them. I could feel God’s love by their goodness and generosity. I was truly humbled by their acts of kindness.
I want to offer you some encouragement that things do get better. Throughout my trial, I was not moved by what I saw around me but by what I believed. My faith helped me to know and believe that everything would come together in God’s perfect timing. Remember, to have faith is to believe in something or someone, to fully trust, to be so confident that you base your actions on what you believe. We can never transform the world by just talking but by living what we believe. As I reflect on my life, I now realize how truly blessed I am. Not only am I the proud mother of a 13-year daughter, I have a great circle of friends and family. I have a peace that surpasses all understanding. God is good…
Onward and upward,
Robin
