It’s been awhile since I’ve blogged. It’s a long story and we would need several cups of Starbucks for me to explain the depths of my emotions and hardships over this last year. I’ll spare you the fine details but know that I have learned some powerful lessons. One being, just because you try to do what is right with integrity doesn’t mean you will be appreciated or applauded. In most cases, it brings about evil, hate, and jealousy. For all of you who know me well and know my spirit and heart -don’t worry, I will not disappoint you. I will press onward and upward. Just pray for me.
Now to the real message of my blog……
When I wrote my book in 2009, I thought I knew myself pretty well. I had gone through a self-realization process that was very cathartic. I purged myself of everything that was weighing me down- it felt amazing. However, on the road of life, you can’t get off the exit to your destiny without a few bumps, roadblocks, or detours. I’m in the middle of one right now. There is an organized chaos in my life and I feel so out of place. I keep trying to find my niche in this space, but the more I try, the more uncomfortable I feel. My mentor and friends keep telling me that I am not supposed to feel comfortable because being comfortable brings about complacency. I knew this to be true but I had an epiphany on my birthday -it was like a bright light was shining on me and God himself was speaking to me through TD Jakes’ podcast sermon entitled, “Radical Faith.” Jakes said you will never move to the level you are destined to be until you find a level of peace in the midst of chaos. Those words were powerful to me. Peace in the middle of mess. I get it….I GET IT!!
My detour is a difficult transformation on ALL levels, (mental, physical, spiritual, emotional) but as I am going through and coming out on the other side of this hard time, I feel stronger for enduring the labor pains of giving birth to a woman who has the TOOLS to actually WALK THIS WALK. “Be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind” is one of my favorite Bible verses. Peace in the middle of mess requires a transformation of the mind. While some experiences are hard and more trying than others, I know I will be strengthened with a whole new layer of depth and wisdom. I thank my Creator, my small inner circle of friends, mentors, and loved ones for giving me new eyes to see ME.
I want to encourage you that things will work out, there is a light at the end of the tunnel, and the Creator uses some of the most trying times to teach some of the most powerful lessons. Be willing to stretch, learn, and grow.
From my window sill…
One Love,
Robin
